Today I go into hospital, into the isolation unit for anywhere between 3 - 6 days for my internal radiotherapy. Then the agonising wait for the radiation to leave my body to a safe level before I can go within 2 metres of my husband and children. This could be anything up to a month for the twins, as they are so young.
I am very very closely bonded with my children, so to not be able to cuddle them, for such a long time, is soul destroying. But I don't have a choice as I need to fight my thyroid cancer.
So this week's Wednesday Words - whilst not very intelligent or technical poetry, is straight from the heart, in a simplistic style, from me to my children...
Mummy has to go away
To my dear sweet Bunny;
Mummy has to go away.
To nuke her Cancer in hospital,
So we'll have many more years to play.
You'll be at school counting,
writing, learning, singing a song.
Mummy will be counting minutes,
That will feel like hours' long.
This treatment will make Mummy better,
You will have Daddy here,
Hug our teddy when you miss me,
It'll feel as though I am near.
To my darling little twins,
You're too little to understand,
Why Mummy can't respond to "MaMa",
Change your nappy, kiss your hand.
It'll break my heart to see you,
Unable to answer your cry.
Mummy is radioactive, rendered useless,
With a tear (or many) in her eye.
You'll carry on pulling each others hair,
Learning how far you can crawl.
Yoghurt on your cheeky faces,
Covering daddy in drool.
I love you my dear sweet children,
To be parted hurts me inside,
But I won't be Cancer's victim,
I must fight, not run and hide.
© Emma Day www.crazywithtwins.com
PS. To my incredible husband, my rock and my very best friend - I will miss you also, but next week's Wednesday Words is just for you! 😉 Take care of our three gorgeous babies, I'll see you in a few days. xxx
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