Here are some prose I wrote last week, during my recovery from surgery. They describe my feelings surrounding my ectopic pregnancy.

There are some people who feel I should be "over it" by now, or that I had no cause to be upset, because my pregnancy was so early on. The truth is, that it is going to take time for me to heal both physically and emotionally.

Ectopic Prose by Emma Day

Bile burning my throat
Nausea pinching my ribs
Pounding head
And aching heart
Hot tears sting my eyes
Nothing to catch them
They hit the floor
Without a sound
Bloated tummy
War wounds that hurt
And look ugly
Bloody and bruised
Still so very new
A nondescript pain
In an unnamed part of soul
Oh the emotion
How the hormones torment
Human chorionic gonadotropin
Doesn't feel so human
As I wait weeks
For the afterbleed
Daily reminders
Of what is no longer growing
Inside me
Sadistic weakness
Inability to do much
Fearful wreck
Wretched grief
But until I'm normal
I should act so

  1. Patricia Walker says:

    I know it doesn’t help much or take any of the pain away but I stand with you. We don’t know each other but I have a hug for you and hopefully there will be a time soon when it isn’t quite so raw

  2. Jenny says:

    I am so so sorry and sending you a virtual hug. I know this doesn’t take your pain away. Ignore those that say you are not allowed to grief we are all different and deal with grief differently. Do what’s best for you not them. #prose4t
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  3. Maddy@writingbubble says:

    Such a raw piece. You’ve been through an awful time and I would hope that no one expects you to be ‘over it’, but if they do then ignore them. Get through this by doing what you need for yourself, not what others expect of you. You are allowed to grieve. Get the emotions out. Sending lots of thoughts your way xxx #prose4T
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  4. Verily Victoria Vocalises says:

    You really have written this right from the heart Emma. I am with all the others and I love the way Wally Mummy put it. I am still not over mine – and I don’t believe I ever will be – and it was nowhere near as bad as yours. Time is the only thing that can help. However much you need. Thank you for linking to PoCoLo lovely. I am thinking of you xx
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  5. Mrs Teepot says:

    oh sweetheart *hugs* I am sending you lots of love and strength, I can’t imagine how hard it is for you. Be kind to yourself and ignore anyone who says you should be over it, it will take time to heal.

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