Here are some prose I wrote last week, during my recovery from surgery. They describe my feelings surrounding my ectopic pregnancy.
There are some people who feel I should be "over it" by now, or that I had no cause to be upset, because my pregnancy was so early on. The truth is, that it is going to take time for me to heal both physically and emotionally.
Ectopic Prose by Emma Day
Bile burning my throat
Nausea pinching my ribs
Pounding head
And aching heart
Hot tears sting my eyes
Nothing to catch them
They hit the floor
Without a sound
Bloated tummy
War wounds that hurt
And look ugly
Bloody and bruised
Still so very new
A nondescript pain
In an unnamed part of soul
Oh the emotion
How the hormones torment
Human chorionic gonadotropin
Doesn't feel so human
As I wait weeks
For the afterbleed
Daily reminders
Of what is no longer growing
Inside me
Sadistic weakness
Inability to do much
Fearful wreck
Wretched grief
But until I'm normal
I should act so
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I know it doesn’t help much or take any of the pain away but I stand with you. We don’t know each other but I have a hug for you and hopefully there will be a time soon when it isn’t quite so raw
Fuck anybody who says you should be ‘over’ anything. They clearly have never been in a horrific situation like this and are most certainly not the sort of people you need around you! You need time to grieve and come to terms with everything and that’s what matters. xx
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I am so so sorry and sending you a virtual hug. I know this doesn’t take your pain away. Ignore those that say you are not allowed to grief we are all different and deal with grief differently. Do what’s best for you not them. #prose4t
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An honest piece. I agree with the previous comment. You don’t have to act anything, just let yourself be as you recover.
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Such a raw piece. You’ve been through an awful time and I would hope that no one expects you to be ‘over it’, but if they do then ignore them. Get through this by doing what you need for yourself, not what others expect of you. You are allowed to grieve. Get the emotions out. Sending lots of thoughts your way xxx #prose4T
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That is so moving and raw. Of course you shouldn’t be over it yet, you will be over it when you’re ready and not before. You’ve been through a really tough time both physically and emotionally. x
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I love Wallymummy’s response.You certainly shouldn’t be just “over it” and actually I came to see how you are. You know where I am, not that I can take the pain away (((hugs))) xx
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It meant a lot to me that you came to visit me. I really appreciate it. xx
Wally Mummy’s advice is spot on. You take your time x #prose4t
You really have written this right from the heart Emma. I am with all the others and I love the way Wally Mummy put it. I am still not over mine – and I don’t believe I ever will be – and it was nowhere near as bad as yours. Time is the only thing that can help. However much you need. Thank you for linking to PoCoLo lovely. I am thinking of you xx
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Whoops! That should have said Prose for Thought! x
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oh sweetheart *hugs* I am sending you lots of love and strength, I can’t imagine how hard it is for you. Be kind to yourself and ignore anyone who says you should be over it, it will take time to heal.