Some of you already know I’ve been worried about a large lump that recently appeared on my neck. It felt uncomfortable to swallow, so I saw my doctor on Monday. The fact I have no other symptoms set alarm bells ringing for me after I did the inevitable googling.
Today I went to hospital to see an ENT specialist. He felt my neck and noted that my coughing after being touched, showed that the lump is pressing on my voice box. The lump is on my thyroid. The next step was an ultrasound, but I had to go it alone as Jonny had to get to work. The scan showed numerous nodules on the left side of my thyroid, but the right side was completely normal.
The doctor then performed a Fine Needle Aspiration (FNA) where a very large needle was inserted into my neck, into the thyroid nodule to take a sample. It was quite painful, I couldn’t swallow and the needle was in for a good few minutes, as they were struggling to penetrate the mass. Eventually they did and they put the slides straight under the microscope. I was sent in to the consultant who sat me down and explained the results.
Whilst they couldn’t be 100% sure from the cytology of my FNA sample, they suspect Papillary Thyroid Carcinoma. To you and me… that’s Tumours. Cancer. We are all hoping and praying that it’s benign (not growing). Most thyroid cancers are benign, but the rogue 5% that are malignant are very sinister. The only way to find out is to remove half of my thyroid. If it turns out to be malignant, radiotherapy will follow.
You all know I’ve beaten Cancer before, but that doesn’t make it any less terrifying. A Macmillan nurse was waiting outside the door for me, but it hadn’t sunk in. It still hasn’t really. I keep switching from feeling like I’m just being silly, and all will be fine, to feeling choked up as though I’m harbouring some sort of dark creature inside my body.
I’d like to thank those of you who have already messaged me kind words of support and apologise in advance if sometimes I’m lost for words. I need to be strong and get through this, for my beautiful children and my wonderful husband. I’ve always been a fighter when it comes to illness and I don’t intend to stop fighting.