I’ve been really struggling with being away from my girls and my Jonny. I’ve made no secret of it. There have been many tears, from me and from the twins, when they see me and realise I’m not coming any closer.
It’s the hardest thing I’ve ever had to do. It has ripped me apart.
All along we have worked with worst case scenarios on dates, so as not to raise and then dash our hopes.
I was thrilled when my radiation dropped so fast I got granted that 2 day early discharge from hospital. I had no idea how much harder it would be once I got home. But the early discharge brought my dates forward a whole week, for when I could cuddle my family. Again provisional dates, based on worst case scenarios.
So when my radiographer called me, offering me an early scan, I said yes. We had a chat and I had a sob down the phone to her. She said no promises, but if I’d managed to shed a lot more radiation, we might be able to bring these dates forward some more. I had a faint hope that I may have even dropped low enough to hug my Jonny, but I didn’t tell anyone that. I didn’t want the embarrassment if I was wrong.
So I dragged myself off for yet another shower, shaved my legs, cut all my nails, double shampooed my hair, etc. And drove myself to the hospital with my yellow card.
Both of the radiographers who looked after me in isolation were there. (Both really lovely). So one scanned me, while the other did the calculations (there’s a LOT of complicated math involved). The Geiger counter wasn’t clicking very much. We all noticed it’s near silence.
I was standing there hoping.
But I was not at all prepared for what happened next.
“Go home and hug your babies”, they said.
Thinking I’d misheard, I got them to repeat themselves. Then explain my readings. Then prove it in black and white.
Then provide tissues as I started crying again.
I couldnt believe it.
Somehow I had got rid of the radiation so fast, that I really could go home to my family and hug them. All of them!
Over the moon, doesn’t quite cut it!
Whilst I still need to get my strength back, wait for my Thyroxine to kick in before I will start feeling better. Whilst I am still radioactive, I am no longer going to cause harm to others. Whilst I still have to go through all this again in 6months, for now, I can get my life back!
So hug my babies, I did.
And kiss my Jonny, I did.
And now, I am travelling down to Dorset to get Bunny back from Granny and give her the biggest hug she’s ever had.
Erica Price says
So happy for you. Shed a little tear at the news. Enjoy your cuddles! x
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The Seaside Family says
Brilliant news. You’re so brave xx
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Helen Braid says
FABULOUS news! Emma enjoy those hugs!!! xx
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Sarah MumofThree World says
Oh my goodness! That is amazing! I am in tears for you. X
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Oh Emma, that is BRILLIANT news, God Bless and keep you ALWAYS.
Musings from a mum says
That’s fantastic news- I’m really happy for you. I bet the girls are delighted to have mummy cuddles. Take care and hope you get your levels right and feel ‘normal’ soon. X
Mummy Tries says
Amazing news, so happy for you x
Over the moon for you! Only just catching up on what you’ve been through. Cant even imagine how hard it must have been but crying with happy at this news x
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Victoria Wilkinson (@LoveBeingMummy3) says
I am so happy for you !! I bet it was the best hugs and kisses youve ever had! You are very brave! Thinking of you xx
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Hurray!! Made me want to cry! hope you enjoy hugging those little cuties!!! 🙂 your amazing!!!!
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Verily Victoria Vocalises says
Best news EVER!!! Bet you can’t wait to see Bunny. I am so pleased for you that this didn’t go the distance with regards to the radiation and not being able to touch. And I hope this means you will be at Legoland :)) xx
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Firefly Phil says
Terrific news! ONE WEEK…!! So pleased for you!
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I have teara in my eyes reading your post & just so happy for you all. That is just fantastic news x
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Lesley Beeton says
Brilliant news! Have a safe trip – and loads of hugs x.
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Faded Seaside Mama says
This is just the most wonderful, incredible news! I am so happy to wake up to this today. I hope all the hugs were worth waiting for! Enjoy them all xx
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Rachael Jess says
Never underestimate the powers of a mother
so happy for you I had a little tear !!
Well done Emma, big squishes to all the family – because you can xoxo
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Emily Tealady says
AMAZING! so happy for you and your family. Happy Hugging! xxx
Jacinta Zechariah says
What lovely news…at a time like this hugs are so important.
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sue tyler says
That’s great news!
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So pleased for you, I can’t imagine how hard this has been for you and your family. You truly are a brave and wonderful person. Enjoy all the wonderful hugs! X
Oh my gosh! I’ve been MIA for a bit and I come back to this news!!! I am thrilled to bits for you!!!!!!
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Red Rose Mummy says
Oh what brilliant news. I’m so pleased for you. Happy tears here!
Fantastic news!!! so so so happy for you. i too shed a tear. Best news ever 🙂 xxxx enjoy all the huggles xxxxxx
Charlie Hughes says
Oh Wow Emma, that’s amazing news ! I have shed a few tears for you. My youngest is 2 yrs and I know how she would struggle not being able to hug Mummy. You truly are amazing. An inspiration xx Enjoy hugging your babies and hubby xx
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Such wonderful news!!! Yay for family hugs 🙂 xxx
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Go you! I am so so pleased for you! You really are a fighter my lovely xx
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That is just the best new EVER!!! I am so so happy for you! xxx
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HURRAH! reading this and cheering with tears aplenty!
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Jen aka The Mad House says
This is bloody fantastic news.
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michaela britton says
Fantastic news. I bet you didn’t want to let go of your little girls xx
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You made me dry but that the best news ever ENJOYYYYYYYYYYYY xxx
That is truly fantastic. I am genuinely very happy for you. I’ve only recently been catching up with your journey.
I bet those cuddles were truly wonderful. Big smiles. Xx
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Great news, so pleased after all that hoping (and reigning back) the news was good.
I think I need the tissues too!! I cried buckets in reading this, just of sheer joy and happiness for you! That’s such fantastic news, in so pleased for you!
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I’m in tears I’m so over the moon for you
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Lous lake Views says
Such wonderful news! Can’t see properly through happy tears 🙂 Keep kicking ass honey x
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What fantastic news Emma! You really deserve all the happiness. This quote is for you: “Your hugs and kisses are like the stars that light up my life when things get dark.” Make the most of it!
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Knitty Mummy says
Wow, you are some sort of radiation expelling superhuman! Congratulations
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Fantastic news congratulations x x
Shannon McCollum says
I am so very happy to hear your news, it brings tears to my eyes!
We’ve had health challenges recently in our family so I can only imagine your joy! Best of luck to you:)
Charly Dove says
Good grief Emma I wasn’t expecting that at all – crying like a complete eejit. Happy tears obviously! That is just the most amazing news. Brilliant, brilliant, brilliant!!! I am SO pleased for you. Enjoy those cuddles lovely xxx
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Mary Keynko says
Only just seen this! OMG!! so happy your for you honey! You are truly awesome! x x x x x x
That was very moving, a very brave lady! Wonderful news! x
Really wonderful news. And like many have already said, I’ve got tears in my eyes too. I know how amazing those cuddles will be x
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Kelly Finn says
Absolutely fantastic news Emma! I’m sitting here crying tear of joy for you all xx
Yay yay yay!!! Just shed a tear! That’s brilliant news Emma yay! xxx
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Siobhan C says
WOW oh wow!! That is SUCH brilliant news! IWhat an answer to prayer….I’ve been out of internet reach for a day or two so missed this news till now! Going to have to change the blog post I’ve prepared for you for Sunday when I host!!
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Best wishes… X
Wow – fantastic news! You must be thrilled! So happy for you 🙂
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The Brick Castle says
That is just the best thing ever. You must have some magic about you. Thank heavens the radiographer offered you an early scan!
Congratulations and happy hugging! Have a great weekend 🙂 x
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sammie Hodges says
Omg!!! That is such fantastic news! I am so happy for you I have tears rolling down my face!! Xxx
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Sara Keel says
That is excellent news!!!!! So overjoyed for you. Happy hugging!!!! xxxx
Absolutely fantastic, Emma I am so happy for you, how could I have missed this. Wonderful, just wonderful.
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Oh my gosh this is awesome!!!!!!!!! So happy for you xxxx
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What fabulous news, hope you enjoyed the cuddles
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Sorry was positive I’d commented on this – I am so really happy for you. x
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Late to the party again but sobbing happy tears for you – amazing! Xx