Recently I feel tired a lot, but more than that, I feel... weak. Most of the time.
Yes, I have been through a lot, physically and emotionally.
I have beat Cancer and I am breaking out the other side of depression, unaided.
Yes my consultant says it's going to take time. Up to a year, to get my life back on track. To be myself again. Completely.
But still. I don't just feel tired and ridiculously weak, physically and emotionally.
The last year has aged me. I don't recognise myself and I don't know where I'm going. Do I need to accept that changing direction is not a bad thing?
Or do I need to find the conviction to stay on track?
Either way... I've a blog post coming soon, that I drafted last night - about not recognising the face in the mirror.
For now... I've written a slightly strange poem instead...
Unrecognisable
The shiny slither of silver
glares an unrecognisable face.
It shouts "tired".
It screams "MAYBE"
to my ambitions.
Reflecting, reminiscing, but no regrets.
The bright light seems fake
It shows weakness.
It shows the cracks
of my soul.
This mirror used to glare,
energetic passion and dreams.
It used to shout "opportunity".
It used to scream "YES"
to motivation.
Perhaps it just needs a good clean?
© Emma Day 22.01.2014
Thanks to all my loyal fans of #WednesdayWords for your continued support, comments and also to those of you who write posts of your own and link up. It's always inspiring to see what you all come up with. Here's this weeks linky...
Love your poem. Such emotional words. You’ve had a tough year and it’s taken it’s toll but you’ve been amazing. It’s great you’re recognising the changes and you’ll be able to work with them/around them. Keep strong xx
Carolynne – Mummy Endeavours recently posted..Wednesday Words – Quote#2
It’s to be expected you would be tired – Jesus, look at everything you’ve been through! You are doing amazingly, don’t ever think otherwise xxx
WallyMummy recently posted..Public Property: Your Vagina
Just give yourself time. You have obviously been through a great deal and that will take a lot of adjustment. Sending hugs xx
YouBabyMeMummy recently posted..Wednesday Words #2
Sounds like you’re going through a rotten time Emma. Have faith that the black clouds will pass, and when they do you will emerge bolder and brighter than ever before. Never under estimate the power of time healing all wounds xx
MummyTries recently posted..No-one is youer than you #WednesdayWords
You are so strong.
Xx
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Amazing Poem, So inspirational x
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