I found a quote today, author unknown, that says exactly what I feel at the moment.
Life is full of choices, but sometimes, things are bigger than us; they are out of our control.
People often tell me I'm brave, but I'm not.
If you are unfortunate enough to get Cancer, it's not a choice. Being brave isn't a choice. You just get on with it. If you aren't strong, then the only alternative really is to lay down and die. That's not a choice. Cancer is not a choice. Losing your job, for no reason, having done nothing wrong, is not a choice.
We cannot control whether or not we are able to conceive, if our children are born healthy or what happens to our own health, the list of things beyond human control goes on. From studying Psychology A-level I learnt that most human behaviours boil down to the levels of control, that people have over aspects of their life.
My amazing mum is having surgery today. She's having a lump, similar to mine, removed from her thyroid. She will have the same wait as I had, back in January, to find out if it's benign or malignant. It is suspected to be the exact same Cancer as I have. She is probably in theatre having it removed, as I write this. She is constantly in my thoughts today. I have absolutely no control over how her surgery goes, or the outcome of her results, but I need to be strong and supportive, to help her through it.
Likewise, my dad and I are also awaiting Cancer results - whether or not both of our radiotherapy treatments have worked. We should find out just before Christmas. So for those religious readers of mine, who kindly like to pray for my health, please send a little prayer to my mum and dad too. And thank you for your support.
So when we have the opportunity to be in control of lives, it's so very important to stay strong. It's not about bravery, it's about survival.
People who are close to me on twitter, may well know, that I have found strength a difficulty over the last few weeks, but I am working on it.
"I cannot stress enough how important is it to be independent and strong. So many things are out of your control, and always will be." - author unknown
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Keep fighting the good fight and surviving Emma. We’ve all got your back xxx
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P.S. thinking of your Mum x
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I really hope that you and all your family get good news soon, Emma. I understand the distinction you make between bravery and survival but I think, from the outside, your ability to stay strong – even (perhaps especially) when you struggle with it – seems remarkably brave. You are right that many things are out of your control but your ability to carry on, to still be a great mum to your kids and a support to the rest of your family is something that you are controlling every day. And admirably!
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Oh Emma, my thoughts are with you all, what a hard time you are all having! I hope and pray that you all get the results that you must long for. You all deserve the best news for Christmas x all linked up x
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keep on fighting, I hope the whole family gets good news soon, I’m sure hoping you get some great news as Christmas present soon, Lots of love.
I’m not religious, so I won’t be praying, but I will certainly be thinking of you all. So sorry you all have this long wait for your results. X
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You are so brave Emma xxx keeping fingers crossed for you and your dad that it’s the best news xxx
Thinking of you x and big hugs to your mum x
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I’ve said it before Emma, I have nothing but respect for your determination to kick cancer’s arse.
I was planning on linking up a poem today, but after reading your post don’t feel it’s appropriate. So I’ve added an old post instead, which is rather fitting.
Really hope things went well for your Mum xx
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My fingers are firmly crossed for you, your Mum and your Dad. Cancer is a bastard. I hope all three of you are able to beat it to a pulp.
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